time I think of the grace of faith, I realize that so much gift from God always
has been guiding me.
Despite my saying that I do not like religion, I knocked the church door, and when I was invited to a life in a convent, I thought that it was not a life which I hoped for. When I went to a retreat invited by a friend, it was more because of curiosity. I had no idea about a retreat, and I thought, maybe we will all do something together after the priest's talk.
Once there was a meeting for young people. And what I heard over there always stayed in my heart. God's deep compassion, His forgiveness and Love, touched my heart. I began to wonder what my life was, and my dream of a rose-colored life faded little by little. And yet, I was still singing the joy of youth.
day, a Sister of the Daughters of St. Paul told me that there are various ways
married life, life of service and also one can give her life for something definite.
Maybe…. no, it can't be. Besides, I am not meant to be for a life in a convent….
I tried to shut off my ears, even though I was beginning to notice that I was trying to listen to God, deep in my heart.
However, I had been restless, and finally talked to a priest who told me to pray and ask for guidance. While in prayers, I thought back of my life and found out that so much holy grace from God has been guiding me in many different ways. At the same time, I began to see that God's compassion which lasts for ever, is the way I had been looking for. My decision wavered many times in front of various difficulties, but I made up my mind thinking that if I don't now, the holy grace for now will be lost.
added my weak self to His disciples, and He invites me into His activity every
I am living, daily, in joy, thanking God of his mysterious influence.