When people ask me why I became a nun, even after 20 years since I entered the convent, I still wonder very seriously. Maybe it’s because every time I give an answer to this question, I have a feeling that it does not sound convincing enough.
I had been brought up in a Buddhist environment, so I never predicted the possibility of becoming a nun. However, although this kind of life seemed so far away to me, and that it had nothing to do with me, it came right in front of my eyes in such a way that I never thought about. An occasion has been given to me to meet the Sisters of the Congregation Daughters of St. Paul. They were doing the missionary work through the mass media to proclaim the gospel. And they offered their life in service of others. Little by little my heart has been moved and guided.
I knew by intuition that this mysterious experience was my destiny. I could think that this might be the work of God. Then came the worry and anxiety, but at the same time I had a feeling of “don’t worry and let Him take care”. My wish to enter the convent came slowly but surely.
Prayer is one of the main things in our religious life. Through prayers, we are directly involved with God, and communicate with God. When prayers become deep, one is guided to another world by mysterious force. We are connected directly with God and other people. By relation and communication with others, we are opened to the sufferings and pain of other people, and we can share them together, and also feel their joy and hope as well.
Looking back, I can realize that God has always been with me, and will continue to stay with me giving me the strength and wisdom whenever necessary. It is my wish to go on thanking and trusting God always.